dear darkness

dear darkness,

seeing blindfolded needs a contagious courage

to say yes to

over and over again

amidst all

the mist I cannot see

many times panting

i say

i will suffocate

if i stay

yet

needless to say

leaving

scares me away

so the same old same old

are the colors for today

but

a new way

of sensing through

taps lightly

with an ancient touch

i know i want it to

to see it

as it sees me

and wants to see me

and yet there is so much resistance in me

so i pause and feel where i am for now

feeling the could’ve and would’ves and should’ves

till I run out of reruns

and catch a glimpse

of a few trails i can see in the distance

i can feel the direction

a

P

U

L

L

toward them

my systems

of holding

myself

up

a specific way

crumbling

a path clears

and

an eden haven appears