if i would' ve...

if i would’ve left him,

i would’ve missed…

seeing the way he continues to show up in my dreams waiting for me.

seeing how he still looks at me as if for the first time

seeing how he keeps evolving into his ever glowing essence

seeing they way he continues to be open and giving to us as we keep asking, wanting, more of him with a gentleness, dedication and subtle strength that evokes memories of our beloved deceased dog Bumpkin

if i would’ve left them,

i would’ve missed…

seeing their blossoming changes that bring me such dear deep delight

seeing how they began to cooperate more instead of collide with their differeences

seeing the way they still look for me constantly to share their precious shares of the moment

if i would’ve left me,

i would’ve missed…

seeing me come back to life everyday more so

seeing the depth of miraculous healing within all the layers that just continued to alchemize within me

seeing how touched i still am to be able to enjoy nature’s awe inspiring ways

so much more…

AND

my breath

my beating

pulse

this life

inside

me still awake…